This weekend I attended a seminar on Financial Freedom and Wealth Creation…and it was profoundly life-changing for me! It wasn’t just about how I can make money or what I need to do to become wealthy, it was about the mindset of money. What struck me the most over the three days was the amount of emotion that we connect to money and wealth. The methodology is based around coaching and active learning, and the processes that were used were extremely empowering both financially and emotionally. After many years of personal development I believed that I had broken free of much the emotional baggage that had been holding me back during my active addiction, but this weekend it became glaringly obvious that I have been carrying around a boatload of anger and resentment that are stopping me from moving forward in my life.
In my efforts to not be like certain people in my life, I have chosen to be everything that they are not, including professionally and financially successful. It made sense to me at some subconscious level that if I was to be true to who I wanted to be this included struggling financially, because it was the antithesis to what I didn’t want to be!! And yes, I have blogged about letting go of anger in the past, and I truly thought that I had managed to do a damn good job of that. I might well have let go of my anger in certain spheres of my life, but I will be honest and say that there was a great big wad of it sitting inside me still. So through the exercises and activities over the very intense three-day event, I was given the opportunity to really let a lot of the destructive emotions and feelings (about more than wealth and money) go!! To watch them shrivel and die, because they are holding me back from the person that I know I can be was an incredibly liberating experience.
It’s always difficult to take a long, hard, honest look at ourselves and admit that there are parts of ourselves that we are not satisfied with. Perhaps it’s our relationships, our jobs, our money situation, even ourselves, but it is tough to admit that we are not happy with where we are. At points over the weekend, I was so far outside my comfort zone that I felt completely uncomfortable, charged with anxiety. But I put my trust in the processes that were taking place and in myself. Since I am a huge advocate of the coaching system, I went into everything with an open mind and was profoundly and positively affected by doing so.
More than once during the course of the weekend I was in a very emotionally vulnerable position, as I was slammed with numerous epiphanies. And the people around me, who were complete strangers, were kind and supportive of my state and held a safe space for me while I explored by feelings of fear, anger, shame and guilt. The activities are designed to focus on money, but the discoveries went so much deeper than that. After digging really deep and stepping into my discomfort and fear, I left the event with a completely new outlook, feeling inspired and motivated. Since one of my most important personal values is education and training, taking a weekend to develop myself is a privilege for me and I loved every minute.
The developer of the course, T. Harv Eker‘s quote was used more than once over the weekend and I truly believe that he is completely correct when he says “How you do anything, is how you do everything!” And I am certain that this goes for our approach to our recovery. I thought about how far I’ve come more than once over the three days, and even though the focus of the seminar was financial freedom, I had plenty of opportunities to relate it to my personal journey. There was more than one moment when I realised that even though I have come a very long way in my recovery, there are other areas of my life I may have neglected because of pent-up feelings I have around certain people, places and this. So this morning as I sit here writing this blog entry, I feel like my personal development reached a new level this weekend and many of the ideas I was introduced to will serve me well in many other areas of my life too. After all life is always better with a clear head and an honest heart.
‘Til next time